My sad existence

I am actually quite depressed right now. No one wants to hang out with someone who cannot do anything but lay on the couch. For goodness sake I can't even get my own water. I hate it. I hate depending on people. I hate being in pain...

The pain along my abdomen is not getting any better. I have been loading up on vicadin but it doesn't seem to be getting any better. It's not really the pain that is bothering me anymore. Now it is just the lonliness. My housemates work during the day so I just lay here by myself all day long. Ari is really good to me, but he works a ton as well. The only other person who has actually come to spend time with me is Ann -- my one friend who is already incredibly stressed out and overwhelmed with her life as it is. And I am not complaining about my friends, I know they all have crazy lifes. I am just really sick of being alone... at least I have Everette, Irwin, Pete, and Kincaid to keep me company (the characters in my favorite book).

And now that I have been sitting up for fifteen minutes I seem to be in pain.

Peace out y'all.