I Remember

I remember when you used to tell me
"I'll show you mine if you show me yours"
Well, I never told you this, but I never really wanted to see yours.
I remember when you told me
"It is perfectly normal to do this"
Well, I never believed you, I was just too scared to say something.
Do you remember how
you used to lie to the people we loved?
Well, you started me off early, now my whole life is a lie.
Do you remember the time
You stuck your tongue inside me?
Well, I felt so dirty that day, because it actually felt good.
One time I jumped
I said it was because I just wasn't ready
What I really wanted to tell you was how much it hurt.
One time I thought you peed
You told me I'll understand when I'm older
Well, now I am older and I still have so many questions.
Why did you choose me
To have your fun with?
I was so yound and so innocent.
Did you ever stop to think
It may affect me for the rest of my life?
Does what we did ever affect you?
You touched me in places my parents didn't feel comfortable naming
And deep down I knew it was so wrong
But I couldn't make it stop
You said "this is our little secret to keep between just us"
It actually made me feel good to know I was your "little girl"
I tried to tell a friend once
But she just laughed and didn't believe me
So I told myself she was just jealous of you and me.
I hope that sometimes
When you see me
You think about what you did.
But don't worry
I never told another soul
Your secret's still safe within.
--Written July 30, 2005 (artist will remain unmentioned)