someone else

Last night I watched a crazy movie that got me thinking. As we all know, it is always dangerous when Monaca is thinking. So here is the story. A sixteen year old boy who has always felt ignored and unloved by his mother meets up with a kid about his age/height/bodyweight and kills him. But he makes it look like an accident and also makes it look like it was him who died and then he stole the other kid's identity. Then a couple years later he stole a new identity. And then another one. Essentially becoming a new person every two or three years. It is a crazy concept but it really got me thinking.

Who would I want to be if I became someone else?

Now don't worry I am not going to go around killing people and then stealing their identities! But there are some definite things I wouldn't mind changing about me. If I could be someone else, this is who I would be.

I would be more confident. I am sick of constantly worrying whether or not people like me. I would stop worrying about my weight and I wouldn't have to worry about my personality. I would be the kind of person who lights up a room just by entering. It would be easy for me to make friends and hard to lose them. I would change my temper. I would not be so easily annoyed and I would not snap at the people I love... or anyone for that matter. I would make it easy for people to love me, easy for people to have fun with me, and easy for people to be around me. I would be more faithful in serving my Lord. I would be more open to seeing the hurt in the world and more closed off to seeing materialism. I would know how to tell great stories that everyone can appreciate. I would know when to talk and when to shut up and I would always know the right things to say. I would know how to make people laugh. I would deal with stress in a healthy way--always taking time to relax no matter how busy life may get. I would deal with my sorrows in a healthy way--never dragging my friends down with me. I would be the friend that everyone would want to go to but they would always be two-way friendships. I would always have my priorities straight and always be able to have a healthy balance between God time, family time, friend time, school, work, and church. I would be respected for the choices I make and trusted to make the right ones. I would always think before I spoke, rationalize before reacting, and put love above all else. That is who I want to be.